Optimism?

As things start winding down for the summer and another semester of college approaches, stress over academic matters will trump a lot of the romantic desires left unfulfilled. However, there will be moments of insecurity, vulnerability and definitely some 倒霉 (bad luck) that await me, so hopefully I will be able to share some of them here.

There really is no plan or bucket list in terms of social interactions this year (specifically I think you can guess what kind of social interaction the spinster is talking about), because I think that’s a little weird. I see where you’re coming from if you’ve made up your mind that the only way tonight will be fun is if you get some cute guy’s number, but personally that’s not how I operate and that may be why I remain a spinster today. Either way, I don’t imagine that will change anytime soon so I’ll just have to rely on my own strategy, which is more like one of having no strategy.

Basically, I think that once I learn to let these things go and just stop worrying, it’ll happen naturally. However, that’s SO much easier said than done and knowing the kind of person I am that will probably never happen, hence…what a vicious cycle. Therefore, for anyone reading this that just had a light bulb go off follow this mindset and you’ll be good. So that’s what I have to work on…and we’ll see how that goes.

Nothing’s set in stone, but for the moments that are worth recording, I will be sharing them here. Stay tuned (or not, if this isn’t really your type of thing or whatever). Seriously though, if you’re in a happy relationship what are you still doing here?

Welcome! Now let’s get down to business.

With a 9-5 internship where little needs to be done, finding something to do with all the time I have is a daily struggle. With too much time comes too many thoughts, and with too many thoughts comes one that has slowly dominated them all: being forever alone.

Even though I’m no middle-aged woman living alone with as many cats as I am old, as sad as it sounds this is a future that I can easily imagine for myself. My past and present have only affirmed my potential as a spinster, and the future does not look bright either.

After struggling with the idea of becoming a spinster for quite some time, I have decided to dedicate a blog to emulate my thoughts on being single (and on relationships but predominantly the former since that is my area of expertise). Instead of focusing on how pathetic this aspect of my life is, I vow to use this blog to assert my independence (or at least I hope to). So for those who are in a relationship, out of a relationship, has never been in a relationship, hopefully you can all find some common ground with my story. Even if my thoughts do nothing but make you feel better about yourself, at least I will have provided some joy to somebody in this world.

I’m not sure what this will become or where this spontaneous idea will head, but at the very least someday I can read these posts and laugh at my own ignorance. However, if you feel very much alone please be reminded that I will be there for you – and if your story is sad enough you may even gain membership to the spinster club that I founded with my friends (but more on that later…)